Gravity. Clarity.

I’m sick. This sucks. I’m not good at being sick.  I become impatient and cranky.  My throat hurts.  My eyes feel heavy. Lots of changed plans and Im finding it hard to get up from where I’m sitted. Hahaha..

   One good thing about being sick though is that I get to think more.  Make things easier for me to place and see things into different perspectives.  I don’t know why, but things just seem somehow clearer.  (Despite the haziness and the drowsy feeling i get from the medicine i take.) For some reason, the inexplicable makes sense.  And what seemed to be illogical, seems plausible.

(This is me.  Sick.  and thinking. lol;p)

   See, i’m one person who does what she feels like doing.  Most of the time, unbeknownst to many, I do stuff that my heart tells me to.  Making my mind temporarily unavailable for a few minutes.. or hours.. Its after the said activity that my mind would race and would sometimes go to overdrive, then I would panic.  Yes, I panic. Haha.. I’m melodramatic that way. I’ve been on a rollercoaster of emotions lately that being sick kinda makes me feel good (in a sense).  Why? Cause I get to shush my heart and make it listen to the 411 (Yes, i used the term 411.. haha..).  I get to shut the world and have ‘Me’ time.

   It’s refreshing and comforting to be able to balance it again (my heat and my mind).  Even for a few minutes.  Making it possible for me to understand better the situation/s and now know exactly what needs to be done next.  I’m not sure if it’s the right decision to make.  But I feel good about it.  Somewhat. haha.. Well, it’s the best option out of the hundredth I came up with. lol.

   There are upsides to being sick, though outnumbered by the many downsides to it.  But the thing is, the upside made me feel better in more ways than one.  So yeah, being sick isn’t too bad.  Despite the nagging ulcer that we’ll be bugging me the whole day, overall I know by the end of this day.. or tomorrow.. or the next, ill be fine.  I just have to learn to deal with it.